What’s the best meditation? Dressing up it is.

“It’s a good thing I was born a girl, otherwise I’d be a drag queen.”
― Dolly Parton

Isn’t exhausting all this: the dress, the hair, the makeup – asked my eldest son, watching me preparing for a good friend’s B-day party.
I get it – for many men, this is a mystery, that for so many of us, dressing up is a huge joy.
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Put your brave on and do it.

There are times you just have to put your brave on and do it.
I was 17, I finished the gymnasium and tailor education (6 days a week guys, no joke).
I was deadly in love for the first time (with the wrong man, unfortunately), so I left the sewing machine and got a work in a little juice/ conserve fabric in the kolkhoz (which stands for collective in post-Soviet Union).
The job was pretty fun: pumpkin juice with orange extract was the most delicious thing I knew and scrubbing horseradish was the best vaccine against everything .
There was some heavy lifting too – but that was piece of cake comparing pushing the heavy food/ sh*t loads in pig or cow farm where I used to help my mother.
Well, I must underline that not everything was shitty in soviet union (therefore I understand why the youth in Russia have star crush on Putin).
There were those cultural/ sports events.

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What you have been through doesn’t make you ugly.

 

WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH DOESN’T MAKE YOU UGLY.

No experience, no ” mistake” (mistake is just a part of a learning curve), being different and not being a “standard” or “normal” make you not good enough.

I became self-conscious about my looks early.

Being shamed at school for having lice, for spots on my uniform, and dirty nails.


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Freaking out of your emotions? Here is why, you shouldn’t.

 

F*ck you! F*ck you! F*ck you! F*ck you!……..

The rage had no more place in my body and it wasn’t in my power to stop it.
Like a volcanic eruption, my too long suppressed anger was spewing f-word from the depths of my soul.
 
Leaving everyone, inclusive myself, terror-stricken and shocked.
I had never shown anyone this side of me.

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When life gets you down – go higher. How I became a beauty queen.

Gita Gavare / Beauty contest from Gita Gavare Marotis on Vimeo.

There are moments in life when we believe that everything is falling apart.
Life can be painful. Devastatingly so.

 

I was 22 and just went through a traumatic experience.
I told only my sister and few other involved knew about it.

 

I even didn’t consider going to the police – not only I didn’t trust it, I was also afraid of it.

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